For the last few days I've been reading the Apostle Paul--specifically, the beginning of the letter to the Romans, the two we have out of four letters to the Corithians, and the letter to the Galatians.
When I was younger, maybe 20 years ago or so, I spent most of my freshman year in an evangelical Christian organization. The letters of Paul were often used to inspire the group and exhort them to "share the gospel," to lead others to salvation--in effect, to proselytize. Proselytizing isn't necessarily a bad thing, if it's what the religion dictates.
Having been raised in the Baptist church, and as an active member in the youth group of the church, I had a firm background in and good grasp of its evangelical tenets. Indeed, I participated in and led a good number of missionary outings, sometimes to resort destinations such as Ocean City and Virginia Beach, and oftentimes to inner city housing projects in and around Washington, D.C. On several occasions, I preached at both morning and evening Sunday worship services, at times to congregations numbering more than 1000.
With that kind of background, I stepped into a leadership role in the first organization that approached me in college. By October, I was the group's president and main speaker at its weekly meeting. When the group grew, however, the national organization sent in paid leadership. Often, I found myself at odds with the organization, particularly when I took a month to lead a study of the book of Ruth, finding it applicable to college age Christians away from the comforts of home, in new surroundings. The story of Ruth finding peace while "in the alien corn" struck me as a fine parallel to out-of-place believers in a strange and overwhelming environment.
As the spring semester drew to a close, I was taken aside and encouraged--"exhorted," I believe was the term--to teach the heavily evangelical portions of the Pauline epistles and to lead a group of young men in sharing the gospel with other college students. What this meant, in practical terms, was to approach other students and get them, on the spot, to pray for salvation.
I had some problems with this. Specifically, I believed that simply leading a life dictated by the life of Jesus would draw others into conversation. Second, I believed that meeting the general needs of others would lead them to inquire about the source of such good will. On a college level, this meant sympathizing with those in any kind of physical or emotional pain. On a global level, this meant organizing to meet the needs of those without homes or food or families.
After a good bit of dickering, I was asked to step down as a leader and eventually left the organization. At the beginning of my sophomore year, I walked out on a church service when the pastor claimed that Christians should put evangelism before, say, feeding the hungry.
I was confused, angry, shocked, hurt. I tried again to be involved about a year later when asked to be interim summer youth minister at a church in Portsmouth, VA. This adventure failed for similar reasons.
Then I discovered the study and practice of poetry. And a few years after, teaching. For many years, I thought that my penchant for writing poetry and my success as a professor supplanted my need to be involved with religion, and that my gifts as a teacher were the true end of what I had been searching for.
But a few things continue to niggle. Why has evangelical Christianity come to dominate the church in America? Why does evangelism take precedence over Biblical scholarship? Why should my experiences in the church of my youth preclude any engagement with scripture? How did one brand of Christianity and my subsequent rejection of it divorce me from Christianity of any kind?
The words of Paul, as they're translated and interpreted by evangelical scholars, transform the life of Jesus into an evangelical religion. What's crazy, what is completely nuts, is that at no time in my experiece as an evangelical Christian in high school and college, did anyone mention that definitely three and perhaps all four of the canonical gospels were written after Paul's epistles. Two of the synoptic gospels, Luke and Mark, are attributed to followers and companions of Paul. Mark was, in effect, the apostle Peter's secretary. At no time did any leader or preacher in the evangelical church mention to me a timeline.
Of late, I've become interested in the Bible again. I've taken the book off the shelf. After all, it is one of the foundations of our civilization, and its influence is as profound as it ever has been, what with Christian culture pitted against Muslim culture around the world. The horror in Iraq was started and is perpetuated by a president grounded up to his knees in the kind of evangelical Christianity I experienced in my youth--an amalgam of Old Testament wrath and New Testament salvation.
What gives?
At the beginnings of both the book of Second Corithians and the book of Galatians, Paul spends an eighth of each letter writing an explanation of why his version of Christianity should be accepted as true for the new churches. The churches were splintering into factions. In Corinth, some Christians were incorporating pre-Christian beliefs and practices (including secular, sexual ones), and across Galatia, congregations were becoming influenced by Jewish Christians who preached the necessity of circumcision and Mosaic law.
In his letters, Paul demands acceptance as an apostle, as one who received truth and a mandate directly from Christ, even though he had never met Jesus. He claimed to be an apostle just as the chosen twelve were. (He doesn't, by his own admission, meet the original apostles for another three years.) On his blinding experience on the road to Damascus he predicates his authority. Any other system of belief is heresy.
Well.
Perhaps a wrathful evangelism cloaked in words of love isn't what Christ preached at all. The gospels are works written after the religion and its main missionary were well established.
It's time for another look.
Look at this. Compare the words of Jesus in the Pauline epistles and the words of Jesus in the gospels. Please recall that many of the words of Paul were written first. Make your own decision.
Which came first--the religion, or the Man?